Hurrah to underacheivers!
So once again I find myself whining quietly, pushing down the questions I need to ask.
Like some sort of Herculean task I shove and shove against the raging tide of anger. I feel the anger pushing like bile against my blocking throat. Why am I so bloody angry? Work, of course.
I am another in a long line of idiots who sacrifice their time and energy to the IT Tech support gods in the vain hopes of hard work, excellence and personal responsibility being rewarded by others. It seems like for the 5th time in 3 years I will again be passed over for a promotion because I am not good enough at whining, and my temper won't allow me to discuss the problem with my supervisor.
You see I can't say nicely "I am so frustrated to see once again that I will hold my same position as the lead in this department, stuck at the same wage for 3 years (except for cost of living adjustments) despite doing all you have asked and more of me."
This newest affront to all I believe in is once again due to familial ties and not merit.
The technician in question is a nice guy, and he can do most of our current job. He does not excel at what we do, he does not take charge of tasks and refuse to let go until the customer is satisfied, he doesn’t research difficult tasks. If a job is beyond the same 7 or 8 he is used to working on (Spam, pop ups, slow drive, etc) he gives it to me. I had been ok with the way the others here hand me their hardest tasks. I felt it my job, since I was the only person in the department with college training and personal training in Tech support.
But this year he started taking the MCSA classes, mind you I was happy for him, since I have had my MCSA since 2001 or so. But now, he comes back from three boot camp classes and my director starts to talk about him "not wasting all that training" and his "potential" and now he is off in level 3 support.
What is a guy to think?
Am I such a complete ass that it is not worth it to move me up?
Should I take my 5+ years in this job and just walk away, or swallow my pride and find the composure to try and nicely ask WHAT THE F%ck they think they are doing? I find it hard to even envision being civil at this point.
I started training myself. on my own dime after I got to this job and I have never quit.
I came in with a college degree, A+ and Network +, in the 5 years since I have been certified in Microsoft (mcp and mcsa) Netware (CNA) as well as teaching myself SQL, and other needed skills ....
I am afraid to even look for another job but is that my only choice now?
My concern is that the bitterness i feel creeping up my spine and hanging over my brows like some sort of demon monkey will keep my words from coming out in a kind way. Instead I will sound agry and confrontational. Damnit ! I deserve some consideration, is it impossible for you to be promoted on your own credits?